Ouchee

I forgot I even had a blog but I couldn't help but share what the "effects" of having a personal trainer have been for me. So I'm determined to get in shape and have started meeting with a personal trainer. In the past I haven't had good experiences with personal trainers. The first time I met with one we did calf exercises for an hour. Who in their right mind would have someone just starting to exercise work on one muscle for an hour? Guess who couldn't walk the next day?... The next time I met with a personal trainer, he showed me how to do these very difficult squat/lunges with one leg in a rope. It made me very dizzy and guess who almost passed out?... The girl working out next to me asked me if I was OK. I decided that Id' try it again, despite my bad experiences, to help keep me on track. So my second week back at the gym I met with my personal trainer, Katie, and we did an intense lower body work out. I don't think that personal trainers realize that us fatties can't do the same workouts as them. Not that I didn't do it, because I did. But I think that they should consider that we haven't used any muscles for a while so we might not be able to walk the next day if we do the same exercises as a super fit person. And you bet your bottom dollar I sure felt it for the next week. The day after I could barely walk. Stairs were terrible and I live on the 3rd floor in my apartment complex and work on the 3rd floor at work but luckily they have an elevator there. I was in denial that the 2nd day it would be worse because how could it hurt any worse!? I didn't know that I could be so sore. Anyways I kept going to the gym to help stretch my muscles but the soreness didn't go away for about a week. So now this time that I met with my personal trainer I was thinking oh this will be great. We'll do an upper body work out and I'll be sore but at least I'll be able to walk and get around. Wrong. I never realized all the things that you need your arms for! When you can't even touch your face, a lot of things are difficult. I have to hunch to eat or drink because I can't bend my arms. It hurts to tuck my hair behind my ear, put on chapstick, putting on a bra (most difficult) and even straightening my arms hurts. I did some of the same work outs I did yesterday to help stretch them out but as soon as they sat again for a minute they were even more stiff. My triceps are what hurt the most and I'm pretty sure they tripled is size since Monday. Most of the time I just laugh at myself because I can't do anything. I just feel like an idiot that has delicate arms. Haha! Anyway, if you see me in the next week bending and hunching over to tuck my hair behind my ear you'll know why!

Change

I've been thinking about this past year and I'm pretty much in the exact same position I was a year ago, even two years ago, maybe more. It seems like nothing has changed. I'm still the same person I've always been. I mean, I am freakin awesome but I do have some flaws. You'd have never guessed, would ya? While ringing in the new year I've contemplated the new year's resolutions I want to make. Getting in shape has always been on the top of the list but I've decided not to even put that on my list this year as much as that desperately needs to happen. All I want to do this year is be fit spiritually. I feel like if I do that everything else will just fall into place. That's what I hope anyway. After all these years of making resolutions to be better I don't think I've kept a single one. And why? It's because I don't change. I just go along with life expecting change to just happen. It's almost like I expect my circumstances to change me but I have to change me. I have to change myself. No one is going to do it for me. That's why I want to be spiritually fit this year. The only thing that can help me is the gospel, specifically the atonement. I need to take it and use it and create a new me. Still me but a better me. The enabling power of the atonement is what will help me become the person I need to be. It's not a bunch of friends, a rockin bod, a boyfriend, stylish clothes, or even the greatest vacation that will change me into a better person. In order to actually complete my new years resolution I have to change myself with the help of the atonement. Its a good thing I know the atonement works or this would be an impossible task. I'm so grateful for my testimony and for my knowledge I have of Christ. He is my Savior, my brother and my friend. This year I'm going to make the atonement my focus so I can actually accomplish my goal of becoming a better me. 2013, lets go.