Old...

I know that I am not old but I feel like I am developing a few habits of the elderly. Along with frequent naps and sometimes feeling computer illiterate, this past Friday evening I was home reading the newspaper and watching news clips online while my roommates were getting ready to go to a dance party. They invited me to go along with them but I decided I didn't want to go; I would rather stay home and catch up on current events. Now, as a 24 year old college student I should be going out with my friends and roommates and meeting new people and having fun but instead I find myself at home alone. I know many youngsters enjoy the news but most would let the news wait and head out and party.
While I was attending SUU, it was a different story. I was the one hosting the dance parties, rock band parties, game nights, movie nights, and everything else in between. I feel like those years I had so much fun and now I am just old and boring. I contribute it to many things but mostly because the fact is I am getting older. I was just talking to a friend about how we wish we could have just stayed kids forever. No big decisions to make, your parents provide everything for you, and life is just grand with the only worries being if you were going get your spot in the lunch line or not. Those days are long gone. There is a lot to be enjoyed by getting older but I don't feel like I am old enough to be getting older. I am almost a quarter of a century for pete's sake! haha! I was perusing facebook today and saw pictures of kids from my neighborhood back home going to prom. I remember when they were born so how can they be old enough to be going to prom? And how old does that make me? Old
Another elderly trait I possess is my lack of memory. If you know me, you know that I have one of the worst memories, next to my mother that is. Love you mom! haha I have very few memories of my childhood, or even high school for that matter. I can't remember much these days so I hope I'll be able to remember my own name in 20 years...
Today in ward conference we were having a lesson in combined relief society and priesthood, where, of course dating was mentioned and all those who were under 25 were asked to stand up. Then all those who were over 25 were asked to stand up. Wow are there a lot of old people like me in my ward. It is kind of scary knowing that my life could continue in this single life kind of way for the next 6 years until I am 30. I better stop reading the news paper on a Friday night.
I know I am not that old but the years seem to be zooming by.
Another factor in my staying home on a Friday night is that I don't make friends very easily. I am pretty awkward person when I am in a group of people I don't know. I never know what to say or when to say it. I have been out playing with my roommates and have had people over for dinner or games but I feel like out of all the people I have met this school year, I have had nothing in common with hardly any of them. I do love my roommates to death and we get along great but others in my ward or surrounding groups of friends I just don't seem to connect with. I have always felt like I was in a league of my own. I am a pretty well rounded person. I dabble in a little bit of everything so you think I could talk to just about anybody but that is not the case. I am somehow in this in between category of (sorry to stereotype but I am) popular/cool/jocks to weird/nerds/awkward people. I do posses qualities of most of those stereotypes but since I've moved to Provo I haven't seemed to fit into a group. I am hopeful for the future though. I have a wonderful summer to look forward to surrounded by friends and family and will be in a new living situation in the fall. Although that has yet to be determined. Even in my old age I can change and begin a new year making some friends and who knows after 20 years I might be able to remember the fun times ahead.